This shows the extent of the damage really - the numbers I mean. The losing has gone on far too long, especially if this is your only form of income, like it is with me.
You're probably bored of hearing this as well, but I could have resolved this ages ago, if only I had the bank size to do so, but this is partially my fault. I'm not blaming anyone. It's just been a dodgy couple of months outside of using Betfair. On the other hand, I know it can change quite quickly so hopefully things start going in the right direction from now on.
Basically I've been trying to get out of a difficult situation the hard way, by trying to gamble my way to a workable bank size and it's not worked. It's made things a lot worse in fact. Once I get a stable base to work from, I can resume where I was months ago by trading as opposed to gambling and taking big risks, but it's just not happening at the moment. Common-sense says I get a temporary job to raise the funds I need in order to get going again, but like I say, I've tried to do things the difficult way which is definitely not the right thing to do.
I'm 100% certain it will change, but I'm no longer sure when anymore. If I had £500+ to work with now, it would change tomorrow, but unfortunately money does not grow on trees and I need to look at ways of getting the bank I need, especially with zero backing as well.