It's been an up and down last 30 days, and a very frustrating one. I've never really had the betting bank-size I used when I was making the kind of numbers you see below (from April 2010), which is my fault as I have been asking the same questions for too long now, when getting a job for a few months would have given me a bank size of 1-2k+ to get going again.
When I was making the likes of above (if you look at the very earlier entries of this blog) I never had any outsides debts and from memory was using around 5k and building gradually through trading - there were rarely any gambles involved. I've just made so many mistakes in the past few months and one of them was playing with a number of small banks and trying to get to 1k+ the fast way, which was not the way to go in hindsight. Another has been waiting for someone to step forward with a couple of grand based on what you can see in the earlier entries of this blog, but there were no takers and in the process I've gone into big debt. Which I only blame myself for.
I'm at the stage now where I need to ask myself questions, and think about how I can go about this realistically as it is having a negative impact on real matters which is not a good thing.
23rd June - 23rd July 2011:
Total P&L: +£106.95
3 hours ago